| Like I said. . . |
[Jul. 7th, 2009|06:05 pm] |
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It's hard. . . To live like this. . . In 2 weeks I see you in the arms of another guy. . . Sigh. . . |
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| Lost. . . |
[Jul. 2nd, 2009|10:30 am] |
Reading those posts. . .
I know you're lost. . .
I know I've lost you. . .
I know i'm no longer in your heart . . .
I know that you're not giving me a chance anymore. . . |
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| Hopeful. . . |
[Jul. 1st, 2009|09:00 pm] |
I'm hoping you'll give me a chance. . .
I'm ready to make the change. . . |
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| Time. . . |
[Jul. 1st, 2009|12:21 am] |
Things are moving at a crawl. . .
I am unsure. . .
How long I can hold out. . .
This fortress is broken. . . |
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| So much for. . . |
[Jun. 30th, 2009|02:19 pm] |
So much for all of that. . .
So much for being the best thing that has ever happened to you. . .
So much for being my friend. ..
So much for appreciation. . .
So much for being there for me. . .
Now it's like I'm not even there. . . |
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| Disbelief. . . |
[Jun. 30th, 2009|09:00 am] |
I can't believe you did this to me. . .
I can't believe. . . That I am being shoved aside. . .
Just so you can go to him. . .
Things are starting to fit together. . .
But if I'm only a reserve, only a back bencher. . .
Then I guess . ..
I have to leave the team. . |
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| 3:01am |
[Jun. 30th, 2009|03:00 am] |
Someone. . . Save me. . .
I am dying |
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| Half. . . |
[Jun. 29th, 2009|10:29 pm] |
On our 6th month, you gave me a card. . .
And it said we'd pull through thick and thin together. . . |
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| Paranoia. . . |
[Jun. 29th, 2009|07:52 pm] |
This is killing me. . .
I don't know what to do. . .
There's no way out. . . |
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| Cursed. . . |
[Jun. 29th, 2009|05:08 pm] |
I'll call this the tainted month of June. . .
I can swear that everything is fucking up. . .
And I haven't seen you in a long time. . .
I am blind. . .
And I seriously do not have the mood. . .
Nor the strength. . .
To continue like this. . .
I think Im suffering from burnout. . . |
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| Without rest. . . |
[Jun. 29th, 2009|02:12 am] |
I just hope. . .
That if this is the end. . . The worst is over. . .
I hope there is no one else. . .
And I hope that things go back. . . To where we were. . .
When we first sat by the river. . . |
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| The Serpent's Tongue. . . |
[Jun. 28th, 2009|11:53 pm] |
I've got the truth before me. . . And yet, my eyes are shut. . .
After I saw that, I began to question what is about to happen. . .
And whether the following weeks will be just as bad as this. . .
I am close to lying on the floor and succumbing to the desire of sinking in. . .
With those words. . . I felt myself getting paranoid. . .
Instantly I could feel my mind wandering to the context of another person. . .
I am, indeed a troubled soul. . .
And I wonder, if it is true, would it be that which I thought would be?
And at this time, I wonder what is it you need. . . |
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| Genie in a bottle. . . |
[Jun. 28th, 2009|01:00 am] |
After that message came. . .
The last candle that had been re-lit. . .
Went out. . .
I see nothing. . .
But darkness. . .
Without light, shadows can't be cast. . .
And I see nothing. . .
Nothing ahead. . .
But a bitter struggle with myself. . .
A bitter struggle to decide. . .
I have lost it all. . . I have nothing more to lose. . .
I'll tell you now, dear friend. . .
I have nothing left. . .
I am an ocean, without a tide. . .
I am an empty glass. . .
I am rotten inside. . .
I don't see any reason to carry on. . .
It has been a 48 hour battle. . .
And I'm close to giving up. . . |
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| Three times. . . |
[Jun. 27th, 2009|06:57 pm] |
Old friend they told me you were dead, the news broadcast the funeral. . .
Five hundred channels focused in. . . |
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| Rotation of this planet. . . |
[Jun. 27th, 2009|10:52 am] |
I woke up this morning. . . And I found the right word. . .
I found you to be. . .
More irritable. . .
And I hope. . .
It doesn't stay this way. . .
For your own good. . .
I hope you gain a hold of your temper. . . |
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| First step. . . |
[Jun. 27th, 2009|01:40 am] |
Now that I don't have the upperhand anymore. . .
Things have changed. . .
You are in front of me. . .
And I am chasing your tail. . .
I am more expenable than before. . .
And your fuse has grown ever shorter. . .
And I have no control. . .
Over any of it. . . |
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| Palace walls. . . |
[Jun. 25th, 2009|11:57 pm] |
I surrender. . .
I'm laying down my sword, one thousand battles strong. . .
You can prise my heart,
From my dead, cold fingers. . .
And it could be, like we never knew each other at all. . . |
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| Lost. . . |
[Jun. 25th, 2009|01:13 am] |
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25th of June. . . 1:09am. . . It's over . . I'm over |
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| Whirlwind inside of my head. . . |
[Jun. 22nd, 2009|12:30 am] |
This is some of the most serious brainfucking I've ever experienced. . .
Things aren't the same. . . They don't feel the same. . . And part of me thinks, they won't ever go back to the way they were. . .
I guess after that night. . . You had already left me. . .
And I guess all of this, will just slowly drag us apart. . .
I doubt you will ever come back. . . Maybe in person, but not in heart. . .
How much time will it take? Before you start to miss me again. . . It's been a week. . . And it's killing me. . . Destroying me. . .
When you do talk to me, it seems so real. . . Yet so false. ..
But I feel like you're not really there. . .
Telling you all of this, would just anger you. . . Frustrate you. . .
And well. . . I have till the 16th. . . |
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| Dog in the city. . . |
[Jun. 20th, 2009|01:51 am] |
I wonder what dogs were before man became. . .
I have until. . . The 16th of July. . .
If the Heartstrings still remain tattered and hanging,
Then I will watch. . .
As the shadows engulf me. . . |
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